Wednesday, May 29, 2019

💎 Collecting Gems 💎

As I mentioned in my previous post, my mental health has nahhht been the best lately. Most days have been really difficult and pushing myself to do anything but lay in bed and scroll on my phone has felt nearly impossible. My list of to-dos has felt insurmountable and it seems like life keeps throwing curve balls* at Brett and me in 2019. It's felt really hard to find the energy to keep going when all I want to do is hide under my blankets.

I was thinking the other day about what I can do about how I've been feeling because all I've wanted to do is feel better. Clearly I needed to do something because feeling like that every day is just not healthy. For some reason the idea of collecting gems in video games came to mind. 💎


In many video games (I was specifically thinking of Zelda, shown above, but this applies to a lot of games), your character needs to collect gems, coins, or other shiny objects in order to up your health, money, and other stats in order to be more successful in the game. When relating this to mental health, you need to think of waking up every day as starting the game over at level 1. You have your natural "stats" that you wake up with (your natural level of positivity, energy, motivaiton, focus, etc.), but in order to boost those "stats" you need to collect gems throughout your day, or physically do things that will make you feel good! (And no, scrolling in your bed on your phone doesn't count. I've actually have found this makes me feel terrible if I spend too much time doing this in the day!)

Some examples of the gems that I personally need to collect in order to boost my stats include:

💎 Exercising - I usually have to fight so hard to motivate myself to exercise, but I know that when I finally get out there and work up some kind of sweat, I'll feel so much more energized, motivated, and happy (yay endorphins!).
💎 Cleaning - This sounds weird and, again, isn't something that's necessarily easy to motivate myself to do, but having a clean space puts my mind at easy and clears up space (literally) for me to focus on other things.
💎 Going outside - It's finally getting to be consistently warm outside and I always forget in the winter time how therapeutic it is for me to be outside. While I love spending time at home, going for a walk, getting some sunshine, and breathing in the fresh air has an amazing calming effect on me.
💎 Working on a project - When I can focus all of my energy into one project, whether that's doing a craft, editing a video, cooking a meal, rearranging my bookshelf, or something completely different, I feel like I can totally shut my brain off and focus. PLUS I can have that sense of accomplishment of completing something when I'm done!
💎 Self-care - I mean this in the more literal eating fruits & vegetables daily/drinking water/sleeping enough/showering regularly kind of sense. You know, sometimes (a lot of the time) you just gotta remind yourself to do those really basic tasks and it's always wild to be reminded how much of a difference those tasks make!
💎 Trying something new - I'm a big fan of learning and exploring, so trying something new always makes me feel energized! The other day I tried a new IPA I picked up at the store (with a brilliantly punny name) and while that might sound small, it was super exciting to try something I never had before and learn more about the brewing company (White Lion).

Aforementioned punny IPA #ROARange 🍊

I could, of course, mention my specific hobbies by name as gem collecting activities, but I really think they can easily fall under the above categories and definitely bring me energy and positivity in my daily life. For example, writing this blog post has helped me collect some gems under the "working on a project" gem category! The more gems I can collect throughout each day to boost my stats, the better my overall mental health generally is, and if I can build some momentum day to day the better I can deal with all the craziness life can bring my way. (Leave it to me to gameify my mental health, but hey - whatever helps, right?)

What gems do you need to collect each day to boost your stats? 💎

*Our most recent curve ball was Brett getting into a car accident last week in the car he literally just bought a month ago. He's totally fine which, of course, we're so thankful for! But his car is pretty dinged up meaning money going toward repairs on his new car. Cool cool cool. 💸

Books I'm Currently Reading

  • No Exit by Taylor Adams - I picked up this book last night because I had my windows open, it was pouring rain, and it was putting me in the mood for something ~spooky~. I didn't have to get past the dedication page before I was just totally creeped out. 😱


  • Still working on Night Film and Good Omens and will hopefully finish those up by the end of May!

Shows I'm Currently Watching

  • I finally got around to watching Big Little Lies over the long weekend and loved the way HBO adapted the novel! Big Little Lies was one of my favorite books I read in 2018 and they really did the original story justice while also adding a few more twists and turns that weren't in the source material. I'm interested to see where they go in season 2 (which comes out next week!) now that they'll be off-book!

  • A Double Shot at Love with Pauly & Vinny - Brett and I love our trash television, especially when it has anything to do with Jersey Shore! We binged the show to get all the way caught up last week and now we're obsessed. Suzi is totally our fave.


  • Finishing up Season 3 of Queer Eye, one of the best shows to every grace our televisions, of course.



Plans for the Rest of the Week

Lucky for me, I only have a full day today and half a day tomorrow in the office this week. We're doing a staff BBQ tomorrow at our Director's house and then it's the weekend again! I'm loving having Fridays off in the summer. It's already been such a dream! I'm not sure how I'm going to be able to go back to 5-day work weeks at the end of August haha.

Friday will be mainly spend collecting gems 💎 in the form of going for an AM run and finishing up some books by the end of the month. Saturday starts June and also starts my 30 Books in 30 Days Reading Challenge! I'm real nervous to take on this challenge but also super excited to strive for this fairly lofty goal. I'm hoping to put out weekly progress vlogs for this project, so make sure you're subscribed to my channel to see what I read each week! The rest of the weekend will likely be filled with hockey watching (GO BRUINS!), cooking good food, getting caught up on some much overdue blog posts and videos, and spending time with B. We don't have anything specific planned which will be nice as our summer trip to Florida is fast approaching, so it'll be great to hang around the house over the weekend!


💎I hope you all have a fantastic rest of your week 
and remember to collect your gems!💎

Tuesday, May 21, 2019

Digging Out of the Depression Hole




Now that the academic year has ended and summer vacation is upon us (and by "us" I mean everyone that works in Higher Ed. Summer starts in May for us. Perks!), I really am trying to re-focus my energy back to the things I love to do. Lucky for me, I now work on a campus that gives staff members Fridays off over the summer (in exchange for slightly extended days Monday-Thursday), so not only will I have more free time to myself during the week, I will *hopefully* also have some more energy! I think that's my main obstacle when it comes to prioritizing my hobbies throughout the academic year - I'm just so tired at the end of the day, all I want to do is be a potato on the couch until I pass out in my work clothes.

ANYWHO, all this is to say that I want to try get back on the weekly blog post train. I definitely did not have the motivation to be that consistent throughout the first half of the year, but I figured I'd give it another go while I have time in the summer. Why not? I do have quite a few fun things planned for the summer (a trip down to FL, a hand full of concerts, a couple of races, etc.) and while I am getting back into posting consistently over on YouTube, there's always something about blogging that can capture it all, if that makes sense.

This week is Round 6 of BorrowAThon which is always an amazing experience. These are MY PEOPLE here on the bookish corner of the internet and I am always so grateful that I have them in my life. They make me feel so happy and like I fit right in - a feeling I don't have in a lot of aspects of my life. Sometimes I wish BorrowAthon happened more often but unfortunately my mental capacity can only keep up with twice a year! At least I'll always have it to look forward to, right?

Books I'm Currently Reading
  • The Wizards of Once by Cressida Cowell (Middle grade fantasy, reading for BorrowAThon!)
  • Good Omens by Neil Gaiman & Terry Pratchett (Audiobook from the library which I'll be reading on my commute home today. I've heard it's full-cast and I am very excited to get to it!)
  • Night Film by Marisha Pessl*

Shows I'm Currently Watching
  • The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel, Season 2

  • Obviously just finished up watching Game of Thrones, Season 8. So sad that it's over!

  • Season finale of The Challenge: War of the Worlds is tomorrow! Really rooting for Turbo!



Plans for the Rest of the Week

I'm honestly just trying my best to get through to the end of Thursday because then I have a FIVE DAY WEEKEND, Y'ALL! I may as well just call it a vacation because I feel like anything beyond a four day weekend can easily count as a vacation. As I mentioned, we get Friday off for the first time this week, then we have Memorial Day on Monday, and then I had an extra personal day I needed to find time to take before the end of June, so I decided to tack it on to the end of MDW. Why not, right? Obviously I plan to do a heckuvalot of reading, but I also really want to go see Booksmart in theatres and then potentially get a haircut because I literally have not cut my hair since August. It's time.


Other than that I really do not have plans for the weekend. I hope to go on a run each day I have off, and maybe film a couple of videos to post before the end of the month. I'm really trying as hard as I can to dig myself out of this depression hole** I've dug myself into over the first half of this year and it's exhausting work. But I'm trying.

I feel like this blog post is just all over the place but that's how my brain feels at the moment. And always, if I'm being honest. But it feels good to be back and to be working to get everything back on track to the best of my ability. Hopefully I'll find my groove again sometime soon!

*Sooooooooooooooooooo I've had this on my currently reading shelf since literally September. There's a handful of books that have been on my currently reading shelf since the fall and I really want to start working to get them read! I'm going to prioritize one each week, chip away at it, and then eventually get my Currently Reading shelf to zero. Big dreams. Wish me luck! 🙃

**The last few weeks have been really hard, guys. Like… really hard. Every day has been a struggle. But I'm trying everything in my power to start to feel better. I'm journaling daily. I'm making sure I'm eating SOMETHING green at least once a day. I'm trying to get back into my running routine. I'm getting up and walking every time my watch buzzes at me to move. I'm trying! It's exhausting but it's important and I hope that others out there who might be fighting these demons like I am know that they are not alone and I'm sending them positive energy to keep on fighting, just like I'm trying to.

Tuesday, May 7, 2019

February, March, & April 2019 Reading Wrap Up!

Of course, while I was taking a bit of a blogging/YouTube hiatus, I fell behind on my regular reading wrap ups! I was thinking about doing a sit down reading wrap up for the entire previous 3 months, but instead I felt like a blog post would suffice so I could get you all up to speed on what I've been reading during this first portion of 2019. I'll be back on my wrap up game moving forward *fingers crossed* but for now, here's all of my reading stats!

FEBRUARY

Books read: 8
Reading challenges completed: 7 (14/52 total)
Pages read: 2,561


Will Grayson, Will Grayson by John Green & David Levithan
Physical copy, 4/5
Re-read for 10 Book TBR #3
Challenge completed: A book with a shiny cover


Radical Candor: Be a Kick-Ass Boss Without Losing Your Humanity by Kimberly Scott
Audiobook, 4/5


Down Among the Sticks & Bones by Seanan McGuire
Physical copy, 4/5
Challenge completed: A book with 5 or more words in the title


A Very Large Expanse of Sea by Tahereh Mafi
Physical copy, 4/5
Challenge completed: A book featuring a historical event that happened during your lifetime


Radio Silence by Alice Oseman
Kindle eBook, 4/5
Kindle book for 10 Book TBR #3
Challenge completed: A book set in Europe


Love & Gelato by Jenna Evans Welch
Physical copy, 4/5
Challenge completed: A book with an emotion in the title


The BFG by Roald Dahl
Physical copy, 4/5
Challenge completed: A book with pictures


Truly Devious by Maureen Johnson
Physical copy, 3/5
Challenge completed: A book set in North America

MARCH

Books read: 4
Reading challenges completed: 3 (17/52 total)
Pages read: 1,172


Death Note, vol. 1 by Tsugumi Ohba
Physical copy, 4/5
Challenge completed: A graphic novel


The Line That Held Us by David Joy
Physical copy, 5/5
Book of the Month book for 10 Book TBR #3


Everything Leads to You by Nina LaCour
Physical copy, 2/5
Challenge completed: A love story


The Witches by Roald Dahl
Physical copy, 4/5
Challenge completed: A book by a favorite author


APRIL

Books read: 8
Reading challenges completed: 8 (25/52 total)
Pages read: 3,497



Esio Trot by Roald Dahl
Physical copy, 4/5
Passed the Care of Magical Creatures exam for O.W.L.s 2019
Challenge completed: A book with an animal on the cover


The Secret Horses of Briar Hill by Megan Shepherd
Physical copy, 3/5
Passed the Herbology exam for O.W.L.s 2019
Challenge completed: A middle grade novel



A Dance with Dragons by George R.R. Martin
Audiobook, 3/5
Challenge completed: A book set in a fictional location


My Not So Perfect Life by Sophie Kinsella
Audiobook, 4/5
Challenge completed: A book from an author that has written more than 10 books

Geektastic: Stories from the Nerd Herd edited by Holly Black & Cecil Castellucci
Physical copy, 3/5
Passed the Arithmancy exam for O.W.L.s 2019
Challenge completed: A book by multiple authors


Roomies by Christina Lauren
Audiobook, 4/5
Passed the Charms exam for O.W.L.s 2019
Challenge completed: A book with a one word title


Emergency Contact by Mary H.K. Choi
Audiobook, 5/5
Challenge completed: A young adult novel


Heartless by Marissa Meyer
Physical copy,
Passed the Ancient Runes exam for O.W.L.s 2019
Challenge completed: A retelling

I actually filmed a reading wrap up vlog in April because I was participating in the O.W.L.s readathon! Feel free to click play on the video below if you'd like to hear a bit more about what I thought about each book. ☺️


TOTALS FOR FEBRUARY, MARCH, & APRIL

Books completed: 20
Pages read: 7,230
2019 challenges completed: 18
10 Book TBR #3 books completed: 4 (7/10 total)

TOTALS FOR 2019

Books completed: 27/150
Pages read: 10,148
2019 challenges completed: 25/52