It's Okay to Feel Defeated

Over the last few days, I found myself letting the negative thoughts in my mind take over. This happens occasionally, especially when I'm stressed and tired. This morning was particularly tough. I woke up feeling fine, but as the morning progressed, those deflating thoughts came creeping through my head.

Your hair's a mess. 

You can't fit into the clothes you want to wear. 

You can't even make enough money to buy your own gas to get to work. 

You're 23 and you still can't support yourself.

Everyone thinks you're a joke.

When it's this bad, it's hard to pull myself out of it. I believe all of these thoughts, and as you can probably guess, it makes me feel very low. It's hard to force myself to get up and face the day when these things are so prominent in my head, and all I want to do is hide.

I'm writing this because I know I'm not the only person in the world who feels this way. Those of us who share their lives on the internet usually try to highlight the good - the positive, up-beat, make-my-life-look-sparkly-and-clean stuff - and leave out the bad - the weak moments, the things that frustrate you, the things that break your heart. A lot of the time, we're lying by omission, but those on the outside don't know that, so our lives might look perfect.

I wanted to share how I'm feeling so that maybe, somewhere, at some time, someone will see this post and not feel so alone. Won't feel so isolated. So they'll know that it's okay to feel defeated, because at least one other person feels like that sometimes. There's nothing wrong with being sad, because even if they may not show it, they feel sad sometimes too. 

You're not the only one that feels the way you feel, because even though I may just be a stranger on the internet to you, I know what you're going through. You're not alone.